Somehow, amongst all of this –  I’m still angry with you and the meanings you made of me.  The dream that this would end differently is still burning me up from the inside.  I thought, for once, something gentle had been made for me. But the love that I have been allowed has always had…

For those of you who might have missed it, recent research has debunked the idea that depression is caused by a chemical imbalance. Instead, it’s caused by a variety of factors: genetics, stress, trauma, your brain just being bad at regulating emotions, even diet. My title is a bit of a misnomer – depression isn’t…

Unless it’s raining, I’ve established the habit of going for a walk first thing in the morning. Sometimes alone, sometimes with a friend, always with an iced coffee. I call my mom, call my best friend, listen exclusively to songs that sway my mood one way or the other. If it’s a good day, I…

Sometimes I feel like I can taste impending doom   Muscle memory begins to recall curling around a soon to be bruised heart  The chest begins to dream that is tender and wounded  Pulse – elevated  Skin – borderline febrile  The teeth ache, the limbs buzz with misplaced energy  We take note of this with…

I just turned 26 and am still single. In Victorian times, I would have officially made the transition from spinster to thornback. Quite frankly, thornback sounds like an incredibly dope dinosaur or maybe raptor. 90% of the time I am okay with my unpartnered status and lack of experience with long-term relationships. The other 10%…

Academic validation doesn’t replace other kinds of validation but it sure does get close. Don’t invite people you don’t know well to your birthday party. DO invite people you don’t know well to other parties. Adjusting to a job once you’ve had more significant professional experience is more difficult than adjusting to your first job…

When I was 18 and had my first great heartbreak, I listened to Stay With Me By Sam Smith on repeat for weeks.  And when I say on repeat I mean I listened to this song obsessively, to the point of insanity. This was back when I still used iTunes and it was the soundtrack…

I want to tell you that there is no shame in wanting to be seen there is no shame in wanting to be cast in the roles they don’t see for you, the characters you are too mean too sharp too fat to play I love that every day you wake up and create a…

I usually call her at around 8 when I know she’ll have just gotten to work before either of us are mired in the tasks of the day because there is something about having your mother, 300 miles away, be the the first person you speak to in the morning I am starting to see…

I am concerned that I am boring. That every single aspect of my personality is just something I saw on the internet one time. Maybe I am too online to ever be really authentic. I am worried that I internalized 2012 tumblr too much and gave myself irreversible brain damage. I am afraid that I…