I am trying to figure out what parts of me are brown
and what parts are white, because we both know I am neither
through and through.
I do not speak the bhasha, the language, my mother tongue
the words I have are scattered and unconnected,
a diaspora of phrases seeded in my chest
seeds that never bloomed.
My name doesn’t give me allegiance, if anything it pushes me further.
First name, unconnected, last name, colonizer.
I exist on a fault line, but I do not which side will crumble.