The doctor told me she would write a prescription to make me feel better,
to make me smile,
she looked my mother; round concerned face lipsticked mouth soft hands that poked and prodded and told me
she could make me better.
But I said no thanks, not now, I can do this on my own and then I went home and googled the word lithium open parentheses medication close parentheses.
All I knew was that they put lithium in batteries,
maybe it would help me light up, turn on, keep going.
Did you know they don’t really know how it works?
They just say here, there it is,
it will make you better.
but I said no thanks,
I can do this on my own.